The fear is starting to seep in. What happens if Sam has a Brady or desat at home and we don’t have a monitor on him to tell us. I will place money that neither Peter nor I sleep the first few nights Sam is home. It’s funny, because until a few days ago I was done watching monitors and worrying. The last few days have scared the crap out of me.
First there was the Brady yesterday when Sam spit up. Then, last night the same thing happened except he took a while to come back and the night nurse ended up bagging him. Then, today while he was breastfeeding, Sam desated and had a Brady! None of these incidents are going to derail his release, but they have shaken my confidence to the core.
I hope nothing happens tonight. Not sure I could take another confidence hit!