In the first of what will be a number of "one year ago today..." posts I foresee this week... Let me just say that this anniversary sucks. This is not something to celebrate. It was one year ago today that my world crashed down around me. From a simple chat at my mother's breakfast table to being … [Read more...] about One year ago today…
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And now for a long overdue moment of zen
Self pity
As I leave Bennett's birthday party I find myself overcome with emotion. I think seeing the outpouring of love from Elisa's extended friends and family has gotten me reflecting on my own extended network. When the shit hit the fan, I was overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and support we got from … [Read more...] about Self pity
Happy Birthday Bennett
Today is Sam's NICU buddy Bennett's birthday. Many of you have learned abut Bennett from reading my blog, and I just wanted to take a moment to say what a great day today is. Bennett is a boy who has beaten more odds in his one year of life than most of us will face in our lifetime. But Bennett has … [Read more...] about Happy Birthday Bennett
A little weepy and other ramblings
As we near the one-year (can you believe it!) mark of when this whole preemie ordeal began, I find myself on the verge of tears- pretty much all the time. I have a feeling the next two weeks leading up to Sam's birthday are just going to be really hard emotional ones for me. Today was a great … [Read more...] about A little weepy and other ramblings
Greetings from Mexico
What was i thinking?! Airplanes are full of germs! How will I explain to a doctor in Mexico about my son's actual age and corrected age? What if he has another asymptomatic ear infection? Oh god... what if it is symptomatic and I can't remember which antibiotic he is allergic to? Yep- I am a … [Read more...] about Greetings from Mexico
Reflecting on my birthday
I know... technically my birthday was a few days ago... but still... It's funny how one event can just shift your perception on everything. If you had asked me last year on my birthday what I thought the coming year would be like, I can guarantee you I would not have described what happened. … [Read more...] about Reflecting on my birthday
When does the worry and fear end?
I know. I know. You never really stop worrying about your kids. That is the burden every parent must carry. What I am talking about is the overwhelming, soul crushing fear that something terrible will go wrong. After all, preemies are so fragile when they come into this world. Every day- hell every … [Read more...] about When does the worry and fear end?
The long video is finally live!
Finally... they finished the longer video about Sam and my story: … [Read more...] about The long video is finally live!
Where has the month gone?!
Wait... It's August? How the heck did that happen? One minute I am whining about my parents being in Africa for a month and the next thing I know... that month is over, mom has had her surgery and is already complianing about being bored with her recovery time. I guess being overwhelmed with … [Read more...] about Where has the month gone?!
Overwhelmed… but happy
This is not something I admit very often, but the past few weeks I have been overwhelmed with everything I am trying to do. It is a new feeling for me, and I have to say... I do not like it. I guess I have a limit. To recap- this is what I have on my plate: Lots of freelance work. Yes, … [Read more...] about Overwhelmed… but happy
Laying low
Sam and I have been laying low, avoiding all the paparazzi that have been stalking us since our TV debut. Well, not really, but wouldn't it be funny if it were true. The ads have been running for over a week now, and from what I can tell, lots of people have seen them. I have only seen the ad on … [Read more...] about Laying low
A TV Star is born
I have made a few allusions to a project that Sam and I have been working on and I can now tell everyone about it.... I was contacted about 3 months ago by Sutter Health and their ad agency to see if I would be willing to have my story told as part of their "Our Story is You" campaign. Turns out … [Read more...] about A TV Star is born
Major milestones have been reached
Sorry to leave everyone hanging after my last post. The shoe never fell... but my instinct was right that something was off with Sam. Turns out he had a minor ear infection. 4 doses of amoxicillin and a bad reaction (diarrhea) and voila- the ears cleared right up! Which leaves us with a week … [Read more...] about Major milestones have been reached
Waiting for the other shoe to drop
I joke a lot about how Sam is the anti-preemie. Hell, just look at the new name for the blog. In so many ways it is true. He has very few issues and is not at Children's Hospital every day for appointments or tests like some of the other preemie mom's I know. This lack of issue has been great, … [Read more...] about Waiting for the other shoe to drop
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