Weaning. This is a totally new and foreign concept to me. With Irene, I didn’t have to think about weaning at all. Between my low milk supply and Irene’s strong will, the decision to wean was made for me when Irene was just six months old.
In fact, my experience with Irene hung as a shadow over me the entire time Sam was in the NICU and I was pumping. I was terrified that I would not have enough milk for Sam, or that I would never nurse him. Nothing could have been further from the truth. While in the NICU, I produced enough milk for triplets. In fact, I had so much milk stored, I was able to donate over 2500 ounces (yes – 2500 ounces) to the Mother’s Milk Bank in San Jose and to a friend in need. Now, here I am, almost 19 months later and I am not worried about my milk supply, but struggling with turning my milk supply off!
Here is the situation. On April 19 I am getting on an airplane to fly to NYC to meet one of my best friends for the weekend. This is a solo trip. No husband, no kids, no pump. My plan was to use these four days away to let my milk dry up. It is perfect, except for one thing. I am not sure I am ready to give up my evening and morning nursing time with Sam. There is also the little issue of Sam not drinking milk (or any fluids) from a bottle or a sippy cup or a straw cup for me or Peter.
But really, what is holding me back is me. I love my time with Sam at bed time nursing him, singing to him, rocking him. I love even more getting Sam up at 6 and bringing him into our bed to nurse and snuggle. Just this morning, after nursing, Sam rolled over, said “done” and feel immediately back asleep with his head on my shoulder. I just don’t want to loose that.
So, what is a mom to do? I really do want to be free but I don’t want to at the same time. Plus, who can say no to this face?
Of course, this one might help sway me the other way:
And just for fun, a little video of Sam’s newest past-time, feng shui.
Betty Odum says
I remember having similar feelings about weaning Peter. (How could I give it up? Was he ready? How would I know when it was time?) I probably looked up the question in Spock’s baby book and also consulted with Grady Niblo, a trusted counselor. Can’t recall what advice I got from either one, but I’m guessing it was something on the order of “Don’t worry; you’ll know when it’s time.” William, bless him, says “just go with the flow.”
Thanks Betty. This is just so much harder than I thought it would be. I was sure that my trip to NYC was going to be the perfect time, but now I am doubting it. I am sure whatever I do will be the right thing… Just need to make that decision.
And tell Willaim thanks. His comment made me laugh… Flow.
I’ve done the wean three times and it’s always hard. My first was a preemie too, but only by six weeks, my third was born with a congenital heart defect and I planned on nursing him until he was two but had to quit early (16 months old) because of breast tumours and possible cancer and yada yada…anyway life story aside..,What I really want to say is that if you are ready then wean, if you aren’t there really isn’t any rush…BUT don’t go on your trip without a pump! Only because being engorged is sooo painful especially if your production is good. At least with the pump you can pump enough to relieve the pressure. Wean slow…trust me…I made that mistake once…not fun!!! LOL.
Good luck either way! 🙂
Thanks for the advice Carrie. I really didn’t think this would be hard. I have been talking about weaning for months… and now that I am nearing the point when I intended to wean, I am struggling with the decision. I guess I may not be as ready as I thought I would be. Now, to search for a pump to rent in New York as I gave my pump away!